lately ive gotten to thinking

i want a relationship, but for the wrong reasons

i seem to just want someone who will make me feel special and remove my insecurities but if someone needs to be there to reassuring me all the time, when its over ill be worse than when it began

i need to decide what my insecurities are and work on them so that i am in a relationship for the person and not to feed myself

physical:

  • my smile - its odd and i think it makes me look ugly
  • body shape -  i could be a lot thinner, far from perfect

personality:

  • negativity

general social fear of being disliked 

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